A Work in Progress

Dear 2010,

I started you wrong -- no wonder why you were pretty much messed up. I lied and compromised, without knowing. I gave up a big part of who I am and what I believed to be right. I broke promises and oaths, played the role of the victim AND villainess, blamed, complained, insulted, and pretty much everything that I told myself I wouldn't do.

You were also the year when my heart was a little too active. I've had my heart broken twice in a span of a month. I guess I was too in love with the idea of love. I tried to put matters into my own hands, chasing after love, like a kid after a firefly. When in fact, it wasn't even love. It was a cheap, second-rate version, with a psychological disorder on the side.

You were also full of drama... and horror, and action, and suspense, and comedy, and thriller, and mystery, with really good cinematography and visual effects. If you became a movie, I wouldn't be surprised if you became the number one movie of the millennium. There was always something going on, and I was always trying to stay alive.

But you know what? I still want to thank you. Besides earning my degree and getting my license, I've learned a lot and grown so much. New friendships were formed and the old ones were strengthened. I've cried bitter tears, but I've had more gains than losses, and I've known more joy than hurt. I've learned that no matter how mature I can be, there would always be parts of me that still need improvement. It was also in your year that I've finally mastered the art of surrender and self-control. I've learned that just because I want something (or someone) doesn't mean I need to rush things. And just because I want something (or someone) doesn't mean I'm ready to have them. I may be taking baby steps, but I'm getting there.

I am thankful for having experienced your wonderful and rollercoaster-like year. Though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't dare change them, even if I could. And I may not know what 2011 holds for me, but I'm positive that it will be as awesome as you are, or even better.

Looking forward to a brighter future,

Micah♥